ona, oni, oh no

I felt like crying in my polish class today.  I hate gendered bits of languages.  I suck so hard at that stuff.  In German I bluffed my way through that bit for three damn years and relied on being better at the rest of the stuff for a passing grade.  I'm not even kidding.  And even though the Poles use the same alphabet, the pronunciation rules are very difficult as well.  I don't even think that the rules are that much different, but hearing the instructor only speak polish is discomfiting, because it's harder to check if i am on the right track with my thoughts.  I wish i knew more polish people, so that i could practice.  And i wish that the students here took their classes more seriously.  It's frustrating to be surrounded by people who are still willy-nilly about their schooling.  I don't understand playing hookie when you're paying so fucking much to be here.  and yes, travel as much as you can, but c'mon.  take your shit seriously.

It was really beautiful out today.  60ish with a breeze.  I sat outside for a couple of hours trying to figure out my homework, but i could only figure out 1/3rd of it.  the rest of it was written down nest to 14, and 15, which wasn't the right page at all.

i had forgotten she had given us a handout.

this class i paid extra attention to what we're being assigned, and writing it down as well.  i have to keep up.  i have to.

Today also while i was sitting outside, a british couple sat next to me.  i started to talk to them about St. Anne church and how beautiful it is, and offered to take them because i wasn't really doing anything and they agreed.  And so we started to walk, only i picked the wrong fucking road and then the wrong fucking turn off the wrong road, and the lady's feet hurt, so i just took them back to the square.  I felt so bad.  The conversation was wonderful, and they were very nice about it, but i still felt awful.

compass.  need to remember my compass.

tomorrow i will be mailing a package, stopping at an ATM, and buying a ticket to another ppart of poland for friday, and coming back on sunday.  Then i will do my homework and travel poland by myself, since my flatmate is sick, and i refuse to waste one more free weekend.

i'm trying to ask the people i know if they want to come with me, but it's weird because they're all people i just met.  and the only place i can really afford to stay is in hostels.  and stuff like that.